I’ve cried so much this past week that there’s really no more tears left for me to cry. All this stress and anxiety is making me crazy. I’ve never felt this way before, and it’s freaking me out. I just want everything to go back to the way it was like, 2 months ago.

All i’ve been listening to for the past 48 hours is Owl City. I feel completely at peace, aha. :D

Oh gosh, i just spent a bunch of time thanking everyone for wishing me a happy birthday on facebook.

BUT ANYWAYS, i celebrated early yesterday with Jay. He took me out for sushi, and he told the people it was my birthday ‘cause he wanted them to sing for me, but instead they gave me green tea ice cream and told Jay to sing for me himself, heheh. Then today, i chilled at Danielle’s house after school, and we did 40 minutes of pilates ‘cause her grandma had a pilates video, aha. That stuff is so difficult to do, and i did a bunch more cardio exercises once i got home because i felt super bloated. I need to get fit before summer, lol.

I’m so incredibly pissed off right now, and i’ve been trying to calm myself down. So far, lurking tumblr, playing Resident Evil, and tetris are not working ‘cause i’m still fucking angry. I rarely even get angry, but oh my gosh, i really want to throw shit at people right now.

I’m currently trying to convince my boyfriend to watch 500 Days of Summer with me. It’s not working. I even offered to make him a sandwich, ahaha.

So, i think i had food poisoning Friday night/Saturday morning because i was vomiting about every hour or so. I haven’t eaten anything in 24+ hours besides a few saltine crackers and a half of a cookie before proceeding to throw that up. I stopped vomiting, but i’m still nauseous and i feel extremely weak and exhausted due to a lack of food. I’m scared to eat something because i don’t want to puke it out. Also, this research paper i have to do is really draining my energy.

So apparently everybody thinks my boyfriend looks like Mac Miller. LOL, i’m okay with this.

I feel like i’m way more emotionally attached to my boyfriend than he is to me. Yeah, this sucks.

I don’t think i’ve ever been as happy with my life as i am right now. I have the best friends in the world, and they keep me in the right direction. I’m getting my braces off that i’ve had for 3 years on Thursday, and i finally registered for Driver’s Ed today. I’m going to try and get my work permit tomorrow, and i practically have half of my summer planned. I’m going camping with Danielle’s family, Warped Tour trip with 6 of my closest friends, Great America on my off days, and other little things that i’m figuring out. Things seem to be going so well right now, but state testing is coming soon and so are finals. I just hope the good things last because i’m finally happy with my life, and this hasn’t happened in a while.

Can someone take a shit on my life right now? Ugh, seriously.

So today in English, we switched seats and i sit in the front now and my teacher spits everywhere, omg. All of the sudden, i see a spit bubble fly onto my paper and i am so grossed out. I need to wear a poncho and laminate all my papers or something.